The Cat's Meow

So, uh, hey there to the nobody that reads this.
Bad sentence, much? It's ok.
As of right now, my life is kind of crappy. This week wasn't the best in history, but I know things will get better soon.
Tomorrow is prom! I'm still no that excited, but I think once I get there, I'll freak out. My dress is really pretty, it's red and white. I'll post pictures later.
Next Wednesday is the International Festival, and I'm sort of excited about that too. I just need to finish getting stuff ready, not that I'm doing too much.
Next month will be one whole year. It's insane. It's been rough, there have been some bad moments, but I'm so happy that I'm with Mike. I love him with all my heart. I never really thought I'd be this happy with someone, and I know that one day I will marry him. I've never felt that way about anyone before. Even though he's a pervy jerk sometimes, and he acts like a baby, I love him. He'll grow up one day, and I'll wait patiently. He's my loveable bum. <3
I plan on updating this a lot more in the summer, not that anyone reads it. <3

Last post: way too long ago.

So yaaaaaay for life, huh?
The past five months have been, can I say... AMAZING.
Michael Adam Von Schaefer= Love.
That's all that matters.

So it started off with us going to AN. Me,Melissa, Cat (?), and a bunch of random people from school. They didn't wanna let me in cause I didn't have my social security card. And I was french/Japanese. I think I was joking around and pretendign I couldn't speak English.  It was wierd cause it was raining so we all had to stay in this tent thing so we just took pictures for a while. I was really worried about this random white wig I had on, and I really wanted to find more wigs. So, for some random reason we left, with the ID-giving-people all mad cause of all the trouble we were causing. I don't remember what we did outside of the AN place, but when we returned it was with Fink. We went up to the door (Yeah, there weren't doors before, but now it was actually in a nice big hotel) and the guards tried to grab me, saying somethign about fianlly finding me. I was really confused and I kepy saying. "Nani?? Nan desu ka? Nanishiteru no???" Cause apparently at this point in the dream I actually could not speak English. So, struggling, with a French accent, I finally got it. "What are you doing? I didn't kill anyone! No one is dead!" And he looked at me all somberly and another guard came over and grabbed my wrist (He was huge, taller than Aaron...) and shouted "Tell that to Michael Phelps and the 4 other people we had to cart out of here in body bags!" And I freaked out, cause really, I hadn't killed anyone! He handcuffed me (I think) to the stair case thing, and he was telling me stuff. "How did it happen?" I asked. "How did they die?" And he took out one of those dry pain pallets, the ones that come with a paintbrush and the colors always get mixed. Apparently, it wasn't a paint thing, it was a chemical mix thing. I took it to look at it and then I looked up at the guards. "Fingerprints. You have to record that I touched it here, now my fingerprints are on it! You're trying to plant evidence!" And he looked down at me with this evil look. Just then, Brittany Sansone was carried past on this Arabic looking throne thing and I freaked. "She framed me! Brittany want me in jail!" And somehow after that I escaped with Fink and  Amanda. We were in a class room discussing the murders and it was our assignment, in indvidual groups, to find out who the murderer was. Then we were dirving around in random cars and talking to each other on cellphones but, it turned out that Fink knew what happened. Apparently in our like... 8th grade science class (that happened to take place in the high school...) we were allowed to mix these chemical things, and they had flavors, but you weren't sposta drink them... (Yeah I have no idea, even in my dream I was kind of confused.) And the people who had died got ahold of a batch that Fink had mixed, flavored as "Juice" and died. I told her it wasn't actually her fault, and me and her, Melissa, and Sergio started walking up this huge-ass steep fucking hill. I mean, we seriously had to hold on to trees and stuff to get up it, while this little black kid kept following us with a CD player, trying to record us saying something about the murders to bring back to the cops to frame us. We got up the hill (we had been going to Mike's house) and me and Melissa spotted him first, playing basketball. (we had all been holding hands like in the Wizard of Oz). So I let go of Sergio's hand and ran foward but now there was a shit load of people there and Mike had to shake everyone's hand and say hi and I finally got over to him (and now I was holding my blanket) and I had to call his name a few times before he saw me. So he looks at me, still holding his basketball. Dave came up behind me and held me in this brotherly way. "Mike, I'm supposed to be in jail..." Collective gasp from everyone, quick stare, then everyone went back to what they were doing. "Why?" "I'm being framed for murder." He shrugged and walked away. I felt crushed and leaned againt a wall. Devin and Kayla were trying to get into a closet (from a past dream) and I knew they weren't supposed to, so I stopped them. Mike's mom thanked me and I leaned against the door.
End. Of. Dream.

So I have t osay that this summer was a lot better than last. I had a lot of fun, and most of it involved Mike. I now have a J-Pop dance group, and we don't know much.. but God we do have fun. Now taht summer is basically over, things are getting kind of sad. Mike will be in college, so we won't see each other as often. He'll still live here, but it won't be the same. No more happy friendly smiling face just appearign out of no where to walk me to class (I'll still never know how he knew my schedule), no more seeing him right before lunch and having him rush off to construction, no more laughing with him in the morning.... but then again.... He'll have his own computer soon, and I can talk to him whenever I want.  Hopefully a phone too, and I can text him when class gets boring. It's easier to have him here at my house, we can cuddle on the couch, but I'm starting to feel more comfortable at his house.
Today, while I was there, his dad came in and said "OK, food. What do you want" to me Mike and Kris. Of course everyone looked at me first, so I just shrugged. He laughed, and said "No, no shrug, you're here more than Jose. Cheeseburger? Double cheeseburger? Two cheeseburgers?" He's funny, and just an older version of Mike. I consider him a second father. X3 Shut up, Mike.
But whatever. I love Mike.

 So yesterday I went to Mike's house even though  I didn't wanna go out. That might have been a bad idea cause I was in a crappy mood for most of the time and worried Mike. But I got over it after a while and we had a lot of fun playing Chocobo catch. And I drew him. X3 Devin wanted me to draw her but~ I suddenly became sooooo tired after drawing Mike, I told her I'd draw her later. Around 8 we all went to the hill for no reason at all. I got about 5 more bug bites from sitting there. The boys played a game with a tennis ball that involved a lot of falling. We went over to Applebees after a bit and it was around 10:00, when I was supposed to be going home. So~ my mom called. I told her where we were and got in trouble. I'm "grounded" which sort of means we're not gonna talk about what happened, if I ask to go out she'll bring it up in just the right way to make me feel guilty about it, and I'm not gonna have a life until I move out. =D 
So now.... at 11:30 in the morning, I am woken up by thunder. And I can't talk to Mike cause his cordless phone keeps going off, thanks to his power turning on and off at random. I'm cranky, annoyed, and frankly, pissed off. I want my book, I want it to be nice out, and I WANT MICHAEL.

Yah, I cleaned today. Real good. I washed the blankets and sheets from both beds, I vaccumed the whole playroom, and tidied up the wires behind the computer desk and TV. It's nice and clean and undusty now. I'm so proud of me~ It doesn't really look any different, but it feels different, and I can see the change. I was gonna vaccum both rooms today but I dunno now. I'm exhausted from doing the playroom. I should probly mop it too...
So Mike called me around.... 2ish today I think. He went to go get his ID and he was waiting for Jose to pick him up (in his not car lol). He said he'd come over after he went home and took a shower. Then he called me again like an hour later and told me that he and Jose had to walk from Elizabeth to East Newark cause they missed the bus. My poor baby. Their mom was on the way to pick them up and he was gonna come right over. So... a little while after that, I get a call from his house number. He passed out on the way home from the heat, so he had to stay home. TT_TT I just wanted a hug~ Ok, no more guilt. I have to find something to cook tomorrowwwwww~ My mom keeps changing her mind. "I'll go buy/you can go get the pizza bread/pizza dough tomorrow." Make up your mind so I know what I'm doing!!! PIzza bread and Pizza dough are two very different things you know~ And if I can't make pizza, what the hell am I gonna make? We have nothing in the freezer but like...... sausage. That's not dinner.
Oh, and my mom's new complain about thing. This morning, while I was talking to her about food for tomorrow, she asked. "Is this gonna be a lunch thing or a dinner thing?" Well, an all day thing. "Cause I'm tired of you having people over all day." Uhm.... one sec please. WHAT THE HELL?! When was the last time someone came over here? And seriously, am I seven? I can only have hour long play dates with my fwends? It's too hot for people to walk here to hang out for an hour and then have to walk home. She'll get over that real soon, oh she will.
So now I'm eating leftover chicken (cause she only cooks when I'm not home) and waiting for Mike to come online cause I'm bored!!! I can't clean any more! I want happy! TT_TT

 So today was crazy.
My mom told me Mike couldn't come over today so I called him and told him he got his wish, he didn't have to clean.
So Melissa gave me a ride. She's a great driver and I should have trusted her more, lol. Her mom made her seem terrible, yelling at her for looking both ways before going past a one way street. 
Mike was playing a game with Aaron and Kris was in his room so I sat and watched him play till the xBox turned off cause it's crappy. Aaron told us that thier mom wanted to go to this little amusement park place so they both had to get dressed. Mike had to be a jerk while he was getting dressed. >///////< He got beat up for using Aaron's spray stuff, which was funny. So we get in the car and the AC was being mean and not working. We drove for like an hour while I died and the place turned out to be for little kids. Soooooooo~ we drove back and got BK. I won't mention how bad the ride was cause I'm so beyond over it. Just know I wanna take like 5 showers.
After BK we went to his sister's house, which was heaven cause it was cool. We ate and Mike played with Devin. The boys killed each other and Devin cried a lot and talked about Brian. X3 Crazy. Kayla woke up and she's just insanely cute cause she's just learning to talk. After a while Mike went into the living room and threw a temper tantrum and I think took a little nap. Him and Kris played some game for a while and then we left. We went to pick up his father from work and the boys walked around and looks for a game to rent. I mostly tripped on Mike a lot. We had to go back in again cause they convinced their parents to rent one. We went home and Mike played the game for a while and killed me a few times (not in the game).  We went back in his room with Kris after he got food and layed together. Kris had a moment and told Mike how much he loved him and told us that he likes Amanda~ There was more, I'm sure, but I won't mention it. I left really late (after getting all weak in the knees thanks to Mike) It started raining hard core when we got to my house and thanks to Mike I wasn't as afraid of the storm. He left in a rush (killing me) and yeah... that's about it.
<3
Going under my list of Best Days Ever.

Ok so last year we were huge, right? How many of us were there? Too many to count?
And now how many have we got? 4. 5 counting Amanda. 6 counting Robert when he comes back and starts talking to us again. Together.
But you know what? I couldn't be happier.
I have my Michael.
The few friends I do have are honest and true. They're not gonna leave me for some stupid reason like not saying hi to them in the morning. 
Everything is great.
Except my mother. She is going to ruin my life. XD
Lazy bum doesn't wanna get dressed today, so I can't have any one over. Well Mike, you got lucky! No cleaning for you today! But~ if it's too hot I'm not walking to your house. So... what are we to do?

Upcoming-ness~
August 1st. Breaking Dawn release partty at B&N..... SOMEONE PLEASE PREORDER FOR MEEEEE~~~~~~ Crystal~
 

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I haven't posted anything cause no one else does either...
So my cousin, Yasai, is here. I hate him. He stays up all night downloading things I tell him not to and then he sleeps all damn day and I can't get anything done! I swear, I might just leave today...... Just change my password and leave! But I can't go to Mike's house... TT_TT I went there yesterday and the day before that... I don't want his mom to think I'm annoying. Plus, I can sense today is going to be a difficult day in terms of control........
But~ right now I'm bored. And sort of hungry. I wanna shower too. But I'm also lazy, so all those things can wait! XD
Tomorrow I'm going to get my hair cut. Yes.

Yar. I think so.
No, not really.
I'M BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED.
Miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiike~
Come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack~
I miss youuuuuu~
Make your brothers shaaaaaaaaaaaaare~
Lol. 

 Mmm, sounds good to me.
My neck won't stop hurting and it's pissing me off to no end. I want to be able to turn my god damn head which ever way I damn well please.
I can't eat cause when I eat I fell like I'm gonna puke cause food is sooooooo unappetizing to me. Food sucks cause I'm stressed and can't motivate myself to want to do things that will keep me alive, like, you know, eat.  
Why am I stressed? Let's think...
Soooooo~ I feel like shit. I'm in pain, I'm not motivated to live, and I wanna sleep for a week straight. This summer isn't going to rock if I keep this up, but I can't stop feeling like this. Maybe I need to sleep for a week. Maybe things will be better if i do that...................................
Car time!

An was last weekend. Amazing. I got two shirts, a bunch of pins, a really pretty necklace, some rings, an adorable hat, and some other things for other people. It was smaller this year than last, so I didn't get much, but I still spent a lot. I didn't go to any panels and I didn't watch any anime. It was pretty boring other than the fact that I was with Amanda and Mike all day. 


So as of now I'm comewhere in between content and upset. My hip hurts pretty bad. My neck is really sore from the way I slept on it. I don't feel good. I just read a DA journal Robert wrote about how I broke up with him, which was unnecissary. I'm tired. My iTunes is not working correctly at all. TT_TT

What a crap journal. I'm so unmotivated to do anything worthwhile today........

So today is a lot of things.
Last Day of School
Graduation
First day of AN
First day of Summer
Possible Soon.
Lol.
I'm so happy. Like, really really happy. School is going to be boring but so worth it cause AN!!!!!!!!! I get to spend time with Amanda!!!!! (& Mike <3 ) I'm gonna cry at graduation. -nods- 
HOOOOOOORAYYYY!!!!!!!

Yesterday was fun. Lots of fun. I saw Lu, and I hung out with Mike for a while <3 Which was nice....
Aaaaaaand today. Still feel sick. Exams were boring and terrible.
After school I hung out with Robert, since I'd promised I would. It was ok for a while but then he got all imposing and he attempted to RP with me (trying to get me backkk) but it was boring cause he's terrible at it.
So now I'm just sitting here wishing anyone was online. Or that someone would leave me a message on any website. I'm bored~ 

So, Thursday...
Skip school cause I don't remember that far back. After the gym exam, I walked to Melissa's locker, met Sergio too, we all walked to my locker, then Sergio's. When we got to the front hall, Rachel was there. She told us that Mike went to look for us and Robert left with Priscilla. Suprised? I was. I had no idea he was going anywhere. Mike finally came back and we all decided to go to Sergio's. Melissa, Rachel, and Serg had to do somethign for Rebel and it was easier just to all go to Sergio's. I just followed cause I don't know where my keys are and no one would have been home. We watched some movie, then we left. They went to the school and Mike and me went to BK. I got fries and a Lemon Icee and we talked. It was nice. We walked to my house and my mom let his come up. I got ticked to death, and we just did random stuff and then we watched 30 Days of Night. My mom likes him, Lol. She went to bed and didn't even tell him he had to leave. Kind of amazing.It was nice and fun. Lol, Flirty Mike.

So Yesterday...
We get to school, and I was upset because I should have just been excused from the entire day, but noooooo, I'm a Junior so no good things happening to me.  So I typed an inventory list for Mrs. Carroll and just kind of sat around for an hour and a half. It was boring but somehow I managed to survive it. Then, I go to first period for attendance. Melissa managed to fit a good deal of stupidity into the first 3 minutes. She got her hair caught in my fan. I only did that once when I was like 7. Then, I got handed one of those annoying SGA papers and I said 
"I'm so tired of signing these."  
Melissa: "Only black people get that. -still trying to untangle hair from fan incident-"
Me:  "What?"
Melissa: "SIckle Cell Anemia. Only Black people get it."
Me: "-puts head down- You Idiot...."
Me and her went up to the doorway since we got out uber early and Sergio asked us if we still wanted to go to the beach. Well duh, yeah, we want to go to the beach. So me and Melissa called our moms and they, amazingly, said yes. Mike called his mom, got in trouble, but he came. Robert even came. I borrowed a bathing suit from Melissa (which was too small >< ) and we were on our way. I got car sick on the way there, sadly, and Robert didn't realize it so he was stupid and aggravating. Then, somehow, he turned into a sweetheart and I felt a little better. 
The beach was amazing. It has to be my favorite place in the entire world. It smelled so nice and it was so bright and sunny out but it was the perfect temperature. So Melissa sprayed some stuff on me (which I found out later did not work for me) and we ran to the water. I don't care that my feet got tiny little cuts from the shells. I don't care if I had a ton of sand in my bathing suit. I was at the beach. The water was amazing. My hair curled while I was there too. I really liked it, and even Melissa liked her hair. We stood outside the car, looking at ourselves for a while, Lol. Sergio took me out kinda far on his back once, and I almost had a heart attack. I guess I forgot he's perfect so he can swim easily with another person on his back. Lol. Jesse splashed me a whole lot and Melissa almost died a few times. Robert and Sergio burried Mike, and he got sand alllllllllll over him (well duh...). We went back out into the water but we got destroyed by this wave. It knocked all of us over. Including Robert, who donned a bathing suit and got wet! So, defeated, we went to sit and despise sand. Melissa and Mike got got. I was just kind of in shock from getting knocked over. We relaxed for a bit, and then we went to get food. Everyone made fun of me for liking salt so much. Running back and forth was not fun with the burning hot sand. Although, it was funny when Sergio picked Melissa up. Jesse is absolutely insane, I know it. Sergio and Jesse went back in the water and Robert and Mike built a few sandcastles, that, from what I hear, got killed. I wasn't watching, mostly I was sitting out in the sun like an idiot and burning without realizing it. Once Sergio and Jesse dried off, we started our treck back to the beach. I was walking next to Mike, and I looked at him and he said. "Oh, now you see me." And I kicked sand and walked away. We piled back into the car and started back home. I was really tired. We stopped at Dairy Queen, and everyone with money offered to buy me something. Car sickness+milk is a bad idea guys, but thanks for being so sweet. So everyone but me and Mike went in and we had sort of an argument, but we're all better now. I was tired and sad so I just sat there. Robert asked me about a million times if I wanted his VANILLA MILKSHAKE. Tell me, people who know anything about me. What are my views on vanilla? What are my views on milk? Yeah. Then, when Melissa didn't want her coffee thing, Robert shoved that under my nose. Another question- Do I like coffee? Does is not make me sick? =D Genius boyfriend moment! I almost fell asleep a few times, but Sergio being a meanie stopped me from doing that. We dropped Mike off, then me, Melissa, and Robert got dropped off at my house. Robert was like "Come to my house~" and I told him, again, that I didn't want to go to his house. I just wanted to shower and eat. So he left and Melissa came upstairs with me. Literally up stairs, i was locked out. Lol. She waited with me for no reason and we sorted out the shells we found. She really only wanted the crab claw she had found. So, my mom fnially came home and let me and. First thing I did was shower. And realize that I got burnt. But that's OK. Showering was needed. The salt and sand dries out your skin so bad and I felt so gross and I just wanted to get it all off me. I said bye to my pretty curled hair. After that I reheated some pizza and ate. I decided I'd go to Robert's house, just so my mom wouldn't notice my sunburn. Well, he was miserable because 1. He's sick. 2. he got bad sunburn on his back, and 3. Probly sun poisoning. So I tried to be nice to him, but I couldn't touch him or say anything so, Lol, that didn't work. After a while he seemed to be OK, and we talked and almost took a nap. At 9, I needed to go home because all of my sunburn, at once, itched and burned. Not cool. At all. I was in a lot of  pain. So I basically ran home and got aloe. I sprayed Robert's back for him and gave him some pain killers for his headache. I thought he'd go home, like he should have, but he went to Chris' so he gets no pity. I mean, he'd only been near tears with a headache, but going out was the best course of action. I sprayed myself with aloe too and asked my (drunk) parents to buy me SPF 70 sunscreen. I got out of the kitchen fast, before I could snap and say something that would get me in trouble. Thankfully, going to bed didn't hurt too much, and I slept well.
 

 So today was uberfun! Well, school sucked, but oh well.
After school I went home and ate, which was new. Then Melissa came over and was going to lend me a bathing suit top but they didn't exactly fit me, so..... We were putting on sunscreen when Robert came over and Melisas had to out it on her shoulders and back so she just kinda took her shirt off while she was standing next to Robert, lmfao. So we left to go to Segio's and we took the most wierd path to get there. We zigzagged all over. We got there and played some RockBand and whatever. We went outside and played with the hose. If Mike hadn't been there it would have been boring. Robert was all "Nuh, waterrr" so he didn't get wet. Mike's a trooper, getting wet even though he has stitches. <3 After all that, and Robert finally getting wet, we sat in the sun and dried off. After that me and Melissa borrowed clothes and got changed. I had to sit in wet shorts though. =[ Oh well. We went into the kitchen to eat and Melissa ate chicken! I don't really care though. Then, somehow, everyone moved around and Mike ended up next to me and Robert was no where near me. I'm still not sure when o rhow that happened. o.0 But whatevskies. So Mike and Robert played video games and Melisa and Serg drew and we all watched TV. I kind of put my head down (sort of on your arm, Mike, sorry if that was akward). I was tired, but whatever. I had ice cream in a teeny tiny baby ice cream cone. We went outside after that and stuff and walking home was OK, but it was hot again. 
Oh, then the fricking storm! I was in the bathroom and all the lights went out. I screamed, ran out, and huddled. It was loud and scary and I didn't cry but I screamed a lot. I screamed in Robert's ear but he was like "OK, bye." And I screamed in Mike's ear, but he was a sweetheart about it and I screamed in my dad's ear next to the window and he laughed at me. But the storm is over now and I'm calm. Ah.......

Ah, so, last night I stayed up will around 6am. ^^; Even though I said I was going to bed at 3. I went into my roo mand read and then I went back on the computer. No one was online though, so I went to sleep. I woke up around 12:30. Pretty bad. Other than being terribly, terribly hot, today was not significant in any way. 
After taking my laundry in off the clothes line, I found a spider, screamed, ran out of the room, and now the little bastard is somewhere in my room... waiting to pounce. It was ugly, brown and big. It was a pervert too, it crawled out of the underwwear I had just washed. >=[ Pervert spider is a pervert. 
At one point in the day I was like "I'm gonna be sweet and suprise Robert at his house!" So I leave, turn the corner to start walking down the block, and bump into Robert. He was on his way to Chris' so I was out of his plans for the day. Dejected, I returned to my computer in hopes of some conversation. No one was on. No one. <=[
So I have a story idea I might write. If you care, go ahead and ask about it.

First off, to whoever wrote this http://inu-rave-lover.livejournal.com/81478.html?thread=49222#t49222 thank you so much. It really felt great that some one other than my close friends sees this and cares. Thank you. 


Yesterday. I. Got. Sunburn.
Stupid Japan Day in NY. I mean, it was so great. So much fun. Robert and me only got into like one argument. And it was stupid. It was like... "Stand over here." "No, I wanna stay here." -he walks away angrilly- THen after giving him time to cool down I went over to him. He did yell at me for not putting on my jacket and getting sunburn, but whatever. It was hot and I already had sunburn. 
So, I'm not going in depth about yesterday cause I'm lazy and don't feel like typing.
Today was good. Me and Robert didn't fight, well, only once. But it was stupid and it actually was my bad. We watched Horton Hears a Who and we sat together and it was nice.
I know you're reading this right now, Mike, and thinking "It's all an act, like before." But this time I believe him. I really do. 
I can only hope, right?